Friday, April 30, 2010

just do it.

"the most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity. the fears are paper tigers. you can do anything you decide to do. you can act to change and control your life and the procedure, the process, is its own reward."

- amelia earnhart


i have always envied people with the drive, motivation, and perseverance that i lack. i mostly enjoy being a type B personality except for my slackness. i'm not sure, is it laziness or fear that keeps me from following through on the great plans i have for myself? i can dream them up, i know why they'll be beneficial to me and how to execute them. i just don't. what is stopping me? what is holding me back? i don't want to live a life with regret, wishing i had done things i hadn't for no good reason. i have a sense of purpose. i need to follow it.

the fears are paper tigers.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

good winter

what might have been lost...




bon iver is consuming me. his album, "for emma, forever ago" is incredible, absolutely blowing my mind. i want to share it with the people at work who make fun of his name but i am afraid if they don't like him it'll break my heart.


an excerpt from his myspace bio that says it better than i can:

For Emma's tracks consist of thick layers draped in lush choral walls, with rarely more than an ancient acoustic guitar or the occasional bass drum providing structure. Vernon sings the majority of the record in falsetto, which painfully expresses the meanings behind its overt, yet strangely entangled words. This newfound vocal path acts as each song's main character and source of melody.

Monday, March 29, 2010

no i am not where i belong.

coming "home" from a trip sucks when the place you're coming back to doesn't feel anything like home.




i miss this:

Sunday, March 14, 2010

the first step is admitting you have a problem

it is no secret that i love cookies. but this shit is getting out of control. i eat multiple cookies on a daily basis. i will not be more specific than that because frankly, it's embarrassing. i can hardly enjoy them anymore, it's gotten to be more of a feeding(literally) the addiction kind of thing. i need help, i need to get back to a place where eating a cookie brings me to a blissful state of contentment unattainable by nearly anything else. can you help me?




Thursday, March 11, 2010

untainted tunes



there's something about knowing about a band before everyone else does. not in an entitled way but in the sense that the music from this band you're hearing hasn't been heard by a lot of other people and it makes it that much more new and special and different and exciting and yours. you don't have a preconceived notion about the band based on who their fan base is and what other people's opinions of them are. you haven't been tainted by countless music videos and interviews. you don't even know what this band looks like, you just know they sound fuckin' rad.

the band is a new find, a treasure discovered in whatever way, and you totally dig their sound. based on nothing other than the music. and isn't that what its all about?

what bothers me is people who were at one time fans of a formerly more obscure band who become jaded and condescending towards them once they (the band) become well known/popular/mainstream. suddenly they're "selling out" because they're successful. i've never bought that. but then again, i'm a coldplay fan, so what do i know.




this reminds me of conan o'brien's message to his fans on his last ever episode of the tonight show:


“All I ask of you is one thing, and I’m asking this particularly of young people: please don’t be cynical. I hate cynicism- it’s my least favorite quality and it doesn’t lead anywhere. Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. But if you work really hard and you’re kind, amazing things will happen.”



blog, pourquoi?

perhaps it's the narcissist in me that wants to create a blog. in fact i'm almost sure of it. to think that anyone out there really wants to know my thoughts and feelings on the things i plan on delving into would be foolish of me. so this is mostly for me. but not entirely, because if it were purely for me, i'd be writing in a journal now wouldn't i. oh well, it's my blog and i can do what i want. you're not the boss of me!